I never knew what it felt like to grow another being inside of me; the amazing way that two tiny cells came together to become a person.
I never knew what it felt like to go through labour: hard, painful, relieving, joyous.
I never knew how much my heart could grow to encompass the vast amount of unconditional love I have for my son.
I never knew that once my baby came out of me, I would forever be walking around with part of my heart outside my body. The world has become a more exciting and more scary place now that I see it with my child in mind.
There are such hard days when I feel like I've failed to be the mom I want to be, when I haven't been compassionate enough or understanding enough or patient enough. There are days when I soak up every little thing Jacob does, from moving his hands to how his voice sounds right now to how amazingly beautiful he is while asleep. It is a most incredible thing to know a human being from the moment he was made. I am very honoured to be helping Jacob figure out who he is and why he's here. It's intimidating some of the time and totally natural at others. He is such an amazing human being, and I hope he always knows that.
|Handmade growth chart|